1. Prepare some candy or snack in the table, you might come more often.
2. You have breakfast and lunch in the short-break time.
3. When you're full, you mostly stepped down on the 1st floor to go back to your office. Reason's...there're many people but there's just a little bit toilet. And you wanna go to the toilet after your meal.
4. You walk very fast then I don't walk slowly to wait you to walk beside me. Because you'll come following in a short time.
   (ps. But when you walk beside me, you walk slow down then we can talk while we're walking comfortably huhu ^^)
5. If I miss you at the 1st floor because I was full after you or I can't walk fast enough to reach you or anything else. Just know...you'll step up at the first stair near body-check. And walk in the office at the first entrance near GM work table.
6. Don't be excited over my brain can't work well and can't find smart words to talk to you. Be concentrate and calm down when meet your face suddently.
7. Keep my eyes on you carefully that you work over-time or not. And it'll be great if there're just you and me walk together on that time.
8. Smile still be the best impression when we first meet. Just smile from your heart all you guys!!!

 
9th :

I'd never forgot this day...NEVER!
 
Today's likely some several days last week that I didn't talk to you. It made me felt so sad and stupefied. All I tried seem liked God presecuted me. I almost missed you so often when I tried to do all situation to meet you intentionally. I was very tired and nearly discouraged to do anything that made me closed to you. One reason, I didn't see and feel your reaction or signs shew that you had a special feeling to me liked I felt with you.
 
So, this day's a tired day and I hesitated to work over-time, not sure you'll work or not? Maybe we had a chance to talk and walk together again. Exactly, I was too drawsy, didn't wish to work over-time too much. But my manager called me to order some more work in last 5 minutes before normal working time's out...umm...so I must stayed here.
 
Over-time working, I saw you went near my office to meet your subordinate. She had some gifts, they're key-rings. You looked very excited when you saw them. You called your friend to saw them too...lovely guy...liked a kid lol. Your subordinate, she sold these key-rings for her special income. I saw you helped her to invite people who're around to bought them.

And then...

"Kae, are you interested? Just only 20 bahts."
 
Huh...What? What did you say? You called my name right? I didn't listen wrong, did it? God!!! My name came out from your mouth at the first time on this day!!!
 
You tried to show me how did it use?
 
"Hey! It looks like you, Kae." You shew one cartoon key-ring and smiled teasing me. It's Doraemon! Umm...Thanks guy!
 
Your friend said "Didn't say like that. Kae looks more alike this cartoon." And he picked another one which's as plump as Doraemon.
Ummmm...thank you very much guys...you're all the same. Especially, your mouths...Ummm!!!
 
And I talked to your friend later that I saw him on the weekend at one shopping mall. He asked me back "Whom did you go with?"
 
I didn't understand why did he asked me this question but I didn't think too much. Then, you asked the same question to me with kidding sound and teasing eyes.
 
"Should I have to tell you huh?" I answered with confident sound but smiled widely liked playing. Haha...I can control myself, don't be over excited too much. I can face with you.
 
Arr...I had to scan document again. I walked to my friend's office to ask him helping me. But he didn't know the way to use. He told me you might know. And suddenly you walked around there. My friend called your name and you turned your face at me liked 'What?'.

Arhggg!!! Very big thanks my friend. Deeply, it's the point that I hoped this situation will be...I wasn't Angel guys, Devil actually I was lol.
 
I begged you to teach me how to use the scanner because there're many pages of document to scan. I hesitated if you'll scan them for me because you had a lot of work too. You and me, we're too close when I tried learning the way to use the scanner with concentrately.
I was very excited, my heart's shaking and beating faster. So afraid you'll hear it. My both hands're too cold while my face's wet with sweat.
 
You kindly taught me although you had your work on that time. So, I said "Thank you very much".
 
And you did it again...Did something that made me crazy about you more!
 
"Never mind Krub."
 
Arhggg...You said 'Krub' so sweet gentle. I'd ever heard this word for long time since we first met before we closed.
 
Not much minutes later, you walked to me and told me "Kae, those pages're rotated in the wrong directions. Why do you look it at the computer before? It's only there."
 
Even though it's my work but you came back to told me about the mistake. Felt so good that you cared about just a little part of me.
 
"Really? Thank you so much that you do tell me."
 
"Have to give me some meal huh?" He teased me with a smile like your style.
 
I smiled and answered joking back "Chose the restaurant." Actually, I really meant it in every words I said, you know? Hahaha.
 
You and me had a little laugh before we moved to our office.
 

Today, I had absolutely right decision to work over-time. It's my happy hours, there's just only you beside me.
 

ps. Err...this day you called my name so often nah ^O^

10th :

This day's New Year Party of my company, I thought I mightn't meet you because there're too many crowds there.

But...Maybe God sympathized me, so he helped me when the party didn't start. He might make you woke up late and missed your van. You begged your friend to pick you up with him. And your friend was my friend and he's in the same van with me! I saw your face earlier than I didn't hope.

Party hours, I didn't meet you or just saw your smart face because our tables're so far away...so sad...And there's an accident that made this party's over before the schedule time. So, I didn't feel happy or enjoy this party as much.

When I was waiting all members of my vans, I saw you walked with my friend to the way I stood and stopped walking there. We're quite near but no ones started talking anything. Although you mostly talked to me and teased me first, but this time's not! That made me felt terrible and confessed. What's wrong with you? I shouldn't be here today!

When all members're already here, I walked following them to go to my van. I saw someone walked in the opposite of my way. And if I didn't move out of his way he might crash me surely! But when I moved I crashed another one on my left. I swore I didn't pretend to make this even as I wanted...lol. Because That one's you! You walked beside me on my left. And suddenly you teased me like you always did.

"Are you drunk, Kae?" You teased me with widely smile and a little laugh.

"How many fingers here?" You shew your fingers in front of my face and waved them so fast. Err...So...I became a drunk girl because I can't obviously see them...Umm great!!!

11th :

Yesterday I gave a pencil to you, but I didn't give you with myself. I sent it through my friend. Next day you around my place early morning when I just reached my office. I saw you'll go here but you won't. Maybe you're going to meet your subordinates but you changed your mind. My mate at the office who knew about you told, maybe you're going to meet me but she sat there with me. So, you didn't come...really?

This day, there're many situations that made you had to near my place but you didn't talk to me or say something...alas. And again my mate said she shouldn't be here at these times. Maybe you didn't talk to me because of her.

When I was managing the documents, you and my friend came to the other side of the window in front of me. And played joking to teased me, tried to made me laughed.

A minute later, two guys'd ever be the other side of the window came to my place and had a lot of chatting to me. Seemed you liked my computer too much, you played it everytime when you came here.

Actually, I was so sad that you didn't say anything about my gift. Or just said 'Hi' you didn't! I was very petulant and I won't smile and do anything for you anymore! But yea...I can't do it. Because just your smile and gorgeous eyes, they can made my heart be soft.

12th :

Felt so low, seem liked a shadow you didn't see and passed me by. Very sad 'till I nearly cut you out of my heart.

Everytimes I was blue about you and told myself I'll tried to take my heart back from you. My heart you stole from me that I didn't know myself when was it happened?

But...

I didn't know why?

You came into my world everytimes as it too. Seem liked you knew...Knew that...You're going to leave from my life. You started Heart-Espionage mission from me again.

Just kidding me with a little phrase. That made my heart be softed enough. So, I can't erase you followed my mind.

"Umm..."

Some sound behind me was happened. Maybe my partner in the office. I thought and didn't turn back to see who it was.

"Umm...Umm"

What? Who? Wasn't she? I thought and turned to see who's making this sound.

"Command the new member with task huh!" It's you! It's your sound!

You tried to call me though I turned back. Not just call because I saw you.

13th :

I didn't talk to you all day 'till it's time to go home.

But I was sad not much because my mate's speech.

While we're walking to the cafeteria, I was talking with her about many things that's odds ans ends.
Suddenly, my mate nudged me with her hand to saw you're coming alongside of me.
And she said she'd something to tell me but she didn't told me at that time.

After we're full, reached at our office she told...
She saw you seemed like to glance me from the back side.
And when she saw that you quickly changed watching to another directions.
It's true? You're looking at me???

When overtime of working finished, I was queuing to stamp time-out.
You're queuing with the same row but with the opposite direction way.
I tired to be brave to smile to you first then you talked to me back.

"I trained ouside many days last week, don't you have some sweets for me huh?"

"Hey! I went training not touring."

If there's no ones at that times I thought a sentence on my mind to answer you.

I don't have sweets but I have something sounds sweet not less than them, do you need it?

14th :

From yesterday, I'd some a little hope. It's influence from my mate's speech.
Sometimes I felt like you're watching me but when our eyes arossed we turned to the other so fast.

And it didn't make me be desperate.
You came near my place to talk to your subordinates.
Before you reached to them, you waved your hand in front of my computer while I was working.
So, I'd chance to talk to you. Thank you guy to say hi to me first with your hand.

We quite had long converstion and you didn't forget to take some candy from me like you'd always done.
I drag one drawer that stored candy and I thought to pick one to you with myself.
But this time it's differrent!
You picked it with yourself while I was sitting between the drawer and you!
God!!! We're too close and my heart's shaking faster!
Did you know what you're doing with me guy!!!

I thought you didn't know yourself because your action's normal when you still be talking with me.

I asked you about preparation myself to go to japan as soon.
You detailed those things sincerely and kindly.
I took my chin on my hand and turned my face to listened you enjoyabley.
I'd to tried to control my brain and heart be stable.
It's too hard!!!

Finally, you asked me that I'll carry my notebook on.
Maybe you email me to your care to buy something.

Umm...guys always like these.
I wrote a thousand mails to you, you'd never send anything to me.
You'll contact me if you want my help.

Why they'd to be the same? I didn't understand???

Overtime's out, when I was walking to the exit I heard the familiar sound behind me.

"Tell this girl, she'll go just one month." And that one touched my arm.

Yes it's you again and you didn't know what you're doing with me now!
I talked to you and your friend about Japan traveling; food, work, weather, ..., etc.

Before we moved to our ways, you said

"Cold outside couldn't be suffered."

And left me confusing thinking alone with myself about your words.

15th:

This's the first day that I'll meet you after I came back from Japan.
Early morning I reached to my office I quickly searched to find a guy with long black hair that his place not far over I could see.
But the guy I saw he made me surprised!
With your quite white skin and smart face with smile not enough today I saw you with a new hair style.
You cut your hair! It's too short when compared with your old.
And that made you're more looking good!
Your face's more bright and younger.
God!!! You wanna kill me really???

When I came around I pretended I didn't see you.
I was waiting you to say hi to me and you did it.
I acted surprising liked I just saw your new hair.
You weren't interested with it.
You talked to me with the same titles that you always did.
You asked for some sweets and presents from Japan.
I let you choose by yourself.
You looked excitied that you're the first person who recieved my gift.

In the afternoon I was finding my boss's new office.
I didn't know where's it?
Suddenly I saw you carried your work, I thought you're going to somewhere for working.
I tried to ask you about my boss's office.
In fact I didn't thought you'll know, just wanna talk to you and didn't know what's about to talk.
Hey! You knew about that office that really made me surprised because I didn't hope it before.
I led me to the 1st outside door and told me where the office was.
There's a door inside I asked you to be sure.

"Have to entrance to that door right?"

"Umm...I'll lean you in."

God!!! I just ask didn't think you'll lead me in.
Because I saw you're going for working.
And that door was saw obviously and it's not complicated way to reach it's straight!

Arhggg...Do you give me a chance?

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แล้วก็...

อืมมม...ว่ะ

ถึงขั้นสะอึกเลย พอได้ยินคำนี้

"เหงา"

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เฮ้อ...

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- คนขี้เหงา -

Umm...Juz crazy with myself again.

 

 

 

Have you ever heard a song that can make you cry?

Yes, I have one.

 

It's my answer right now.

And this's the song I mentioned.

 

 

 

'Nothing Like You And I'   By The Perishers.

 

 

 

Even though lyric's not sad...not much.

 

 

But...

 

 

I wanna cry everytime when listening.

But feel good in my heart and soul.

Maybe the music sound and artist voice's easy to impel my sensitive emotion.

The important reason, the lyric extreamely effects to my heart.

Almost situation quite like me and...you.

 

You, who's in this song like...

'You' in my real life.

 

And I've always told myself all the time.

It's impossible between you and me.

 

So why do I even try???

 

 

 

T h e r e ' s   n o t h i n g   l i k e   y o u   a n d   I

 

 

 

But I won't try to forget you.

Like I juz told my luvly sister last time.

 

Be honest with your heart.

To forget something might be more pain than to remember it.

 

'Cos you needn't to pretend or heavily try to do it.

 

How much you try as how much you resist...

How much you resist as how much you feel pained...

How much you feel pained as how much tear you are lost...

How much tear you are lost as how much wounds are happened in your heart...

 

 

 

 

Easy way out is do nothing...